About
I’m Imraan. The purpose of this blog is for me to attempt to be introspective and philosophical about my life. But perhaps it’s just a facade. I like to write stuff down, and occasionally upload them.
If you know me, then you’ll understand that the title of this blog, ‘Heightened Senses’ is a cruel joke about my life. But it makes for much laughter too. Laughter, if sincere and not indulgent or mirthful, is perhaps one of the most edifying things I have experienced.
When able, I like to campaign for disability rights, and often share experiences of my own life – having for the last decade been an ME sufferer, and in the last five years and a half years or so (as of October 2016) a Severe ME patient spending most of my time almost completely bedridden and barely able to sit upright for any real amount of time, unless thoroughly sedated. I am twenty-(some-odd) years old – and so I often wonder if my life was ‘supposed’ to go this way; as a result I now have an interest in the notion of ‘Destiny’. Of utter human liberty, of intellectual freedom. Maybe that is all I will ever be Permitted to attain, or maybe my pursuits will result in misguided, deluded or even indulgent thinking. I pray that I am open to your, my dear friends, suggestions in unshackling my mind. Or perhaps that Liberation has to come from within, to be truly free from this world and her shackles, spiritual flourishing in the hopes that what remains after the body decays are one’s metaphysical works, with the Grace and Guidance of the Almighty.
I have an interest in politics, anarchism, religion and religious studies, Islamic studies as a discipline on its own, anti-colonial and anti-hegemonic studies; moreover I have an abject dislike of the politics of Zionism (“can’t we all get along?”), Western Capitalism, US Imperialism, and am a firm believer that “man is born free, and everywhere he is in chains.” – only Rousseau’s formulation of freedom verges on the totalitarian.
I love to read, but don’t read nearly as much as I should – and have recently become more furiously Leftist in my approach to politics, economics…even religion. My heroes include Noam Chomsky, Norman Finkelstein, the late Ayatullah Khomeini, Edward Said, Karl Marx, Mordechai Vanunu, Julian Assange,, Fidel Castro, Tony Benn, Foucault; Dr Rowan Williams, Dr Seyyed Hossein Nasr, and a host of other names and ideas that have helped give birth to a vision – one that I pray of course will broaden and astound me always in life. But most importantly Muhammad, the final Messenger, and Ali b. Abi Talib are the men in whose hands and lineage by way of Fatima (s.a) I place my hope, and in the Lord that they worshiped, and of Whose Unity so utterly, they profess, is He who I pray will Receive me. And, one day, return me to my real Self.
My favourite quotes, taken from rather different sources, are:
“Do not let your difficulties fill you with anxiety; after all, it is only in the darkest nights that the stars shine more brilliantly.” Ali b. Abi Talib
“No tree has branches so foolish as to fight amongst themselves.” Ojibwa saying
“Forgiveness is the fragrance the violet sheds on the heel that has crushed it.“ Mark Twain
“If walls are high, the sky is higher still.” From the film Kandahar, 2001
“If there is faith in the future, then there is power in the present.” Zig Ziglar,known also as America’s Master Motivator
“If you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans!”
“Every day I wake up and have to apologise for what I said yesterday.” Roseanne
“He who seeks worldly things is like the man who drinks sea water: the more he drinks, the more thirsty he becomes, until it kills him [with his thirst unquenched].” Ja’far ibn Muhammad al-Sadiq

I know you’re tired but come, this is the way.
~ Rumi
It is your turn now,
you waited, you were patient.
The time has come,
for us to polish you.
We will transform your inner pearl
into a house of fire.
You’re a gold mine.
Did you know that,
hidden in the dirt of the earth?
It is your turn now,
to be placed in fire.
Let us cremate your impurities.
~ Rumi
Leave thinking to the one who gave intelligence.
In silence, there is eloquence.
~ Rumi
There is only one way to go, and that’s up. I know that it is possible for life to look, sometimes, as if it’s going downhill, as if everything is falling apart. But consider this: When life is ‘falling apart’ things could actually be falling together…maybe for the first time.
– Neale Donald Walsch
I learned long ago, never to wrestle with a pig. You get dirty, and besides, the pig likes it.
~ George Bernard Shaw
Give thanks for the unknown blessings already on their way.
~ Native American saying
Re-examine all you have been told.
Dismiss what insults your soul.
~ Walt Whitman
Very little grows on jagged rock. Be ground.
Be crumbled, so wildflowers will come up where you sit.
You’ve been stony for too many years.
Try something different. Surrender.
~ Rumi
You often ask for something but you are not given it, and then, sooner or later, you are given something better than it. What you wanted is withheld from you so that you can have what is better for you.
~ Imam Ali (a.s.)
We do not become healers. We came as healers. We are. Some of us are still catching up to what we are.
We do not become storytellers. We came as carriers of the stories we and our ancestors actually lived. We are. Some of us are still catching up to what we are.
We do not become artists. We came as artists. We are. Some of us are still catching up to what we are.
We do not become writers, dancers, musicians, helpers, peacemakers. We came as such. We are. Some of us are still catching up to what we are.
We do not learn to love in this sense. We came as Love. We are Love. Some of us are still catching up to who we truly are.
~ Clarissa Pinkola Estes
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My brother, you inspire me.
Hello, Imraan. May I share something with you? I will not pretend to know any cure for ME, but you may find my story interesting. Years back, suddenly, for an unknown reason at the time, I became ill with various health problems, serious ones. The doctors couldn’t diagnose the cause of this sudden onset. And it was getting worse with time. I was on my own to figure it out. I considered diet changes which I may have made. That same year that I became very sick was the very same year that GMOs were introduced into the food supply. So I stopped eating genetically modified food. And that was it. The GMOs were acting like a poison. I also don’t eat anything which is not organic, so no preservatives, dyes, or pesticides. I had a body which nearly stopped functioning altogether which became healthy once again. I think some of us must be genetically sensitive, unlike some, to anything which is not natural. I don’t eat anything from a lab anymore, just everything halal. It’s just an idea thrown out there…. Love your blog… :)
Dear sister,
I pray that this finds you well, by His Grace. I am so sorry it has taken this long to get back to you.
I’m so pleased that you have become better since stopping GM-foods. What a great idea! I’ve recently been avoiding pretty-much anything processed, and I believe GM is very limited in the UK (but i’ll read up on this to make sure I’m not having any in my diet). Indeed, we are what we eat, as they say. Often, we don’t realise that food is primarily for nourishment, and that our bodies need the right sorts of fuel on which to run.
Since changing my diet to pretty-much vegan in all meals, I’ve found my pain levels have decreased a little and that I’m concentrating more; I shall be more vigilant about this and let you know how I go, in sha Allah.
How are you today?
Thank you for enjoying the blog. I, too, love yours. May I ask, have you a post on your blog about your background and what drew you to Sufism (unless you were raised as such – most people I know seem to grow into it or claim the various traditions as they progress a little in life!)
With love,
Imraan
Hi Imraan,
I am a writer with ME/CFS who has had the immense good fortune to have mostly recovered. I’ve written about the disease for the New York Times, the Washington Post, and Slate. My most recent article is: http://www.slate.com/articles/health_and_science/medical_examiner/2015/11/chronic_fatigue_pace_trial_is_flawed_should_be_reanalyzed.single.html
I’m reaching out for a reason that’s going to take a little explaining. After the attacks in Paris on Friday, I posted this on Facebook:
“My biggest worry after these attacks in Paris is that the West will respond in a way that plays into the ISIS narrative that the West is out to get Muslims. If we do, that is likely to radicalize people who otherwise be integrated into our societies.
“Thinking about that made me think of a small thing I personally can do to combat terror: to reach out and support Muslims in my communities. Perhaps I can, in some tiny way, thicken the web of connection that unites us — because it’s also that web that protects us.
“So, do you know of any Muslims with ME/CFS (or are you such a person)?”
A FB friend of mine mentioned your blog, so I thought I’d reach out. I don’t know if I have anything useful to offer you, but perhaps a bit of connection with someone far away who has experienced this terrible illness might be comforting.
Please contact me if you’re interested.